ever waiting

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 What are you waiting for?
I'm not waiting, I was before.

The light was taunting, and you ignored.
A veil wrapped around me, I swum offshore.

After a house of gold, why'd you still want more?
Pardon, I think I confused glory with valour.

And this illusion, it led you to a different door?
Oblivion from my void, it tore.

Do you prefer unknowing? do you deplore?
I was comfortable, then novelty swept the floor.

Can't say it was easy, yet as the curtains unfold,
I can be sure, that the mist I abhor.

Even now, my boat is strong but I can't move my oar.
Hence I ask, still, what are you waiting for?

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